“THE LAST STRAW IN PRAISE OF CAMELS”: Overseas international students’ “Last straw” of committing suicide
An MBA student Heng Guo (Nikita) at MIT’s Sloan School committed suicide in her apartment in Cambridge. In October 2014, A 20-year-old exchange student Yangkai Li studying at Maryland’s Johns Hopkins University committed suicide by jumping from a nearby dormitory, becoming yet another tragic example of a student unable to cope with the pressures of their experience. As well, 22-year-old California State University international student Lin Xu jumped from a five-story building after failing to complete a school project.
I heard many news and comments about overseas student commit suicide. I used to despise those who give up halfway, retreat, and choose to commit suicide. I even think those ruined their parents' efforts, incredibly irresponsible people. I despise those until I carry three 26 kg suitcases coming to Canada becoming an international journalism student at Humber until I failed to cope with the difficulty, loneliness, and desperation in a foreign country.
I began to understand those who choose to commit suicide and why they make such an extreme decision when people shout at me “you don’t speak English, go back to China…” ; when a landlord refused to rent me an apartment because I am Chinese; when I never understood the jokes and why my classmates were laughing in class; when I passed out in front of City Hall during waiting to interview a politician; when a Humber Chinese student cut off her wrist in front of me, and the blood came out from her skin; when I walked into the cold Lake Ontario for trying to sink myself to death in the winter.
Nobody wants to choose giving up life, but in a moment, it just happened that life crushed a person.